A
Review of
The Secret Thoughts of an
Unlikely Convert: an english professor’s journey into Christian faith
By
Rosaria Champagne Butterfield, Crown & Covenant Publications, 2012.
Rosaria Champagne Butterfield in her book The Secret Thoughts of an Unlikely Convert:
an english professor’s journey into Christian faith allows the Church to
see the unfolding of Christ’s redemptive purposes in an individual’s life. Yet, one sees that his
work was within and through the presence of the Church. Butterfield was a
progressive lesbian; she was an associate professor in the English department
of Syracuse University and her ideological grounding was in Freud, Marx and
Darwin. Butterfield held a “joint teaching appointment in the Center for Women’s
Studies,” and was the “faculty advisor to all the gay and lesbian and feminist
groups on campus.” Butterfield’s book hold’s several unspoken gems for the
Church universal. I will list them.
(1) Butterfield began her journey toward Christ by reading
the Bible. She read it as a researcher who perceived the Bible to be a harmful
text causing destructive actions by those who believed its message. Pastors and
Christian friends, as well as an ex-Presbyterian minister who was transgender,
added to her understanding of the word—but it was always the word. My point here is that in the midst of all of
our searching and planning to be missional we must not forget that it is God
and his word that brings the sinner to Jesus Christ. As the word is read and
proclaimed the Father through the enlightenment of the Holy Spirit begins a
work which leads the sinner to the Son.
(2)The pastors and church families of a very conservative
denomination, the Reformed Presbyterian Church, which only sings the Psalms and
that acapella, was used by God to bring Butterfield to Christ. The word preached,
friendship, good conversations over food, honest questions and honest answers, faithfulness:
these are God’s tools. As Butterfield writes:
God sent me to a Reformed and
Presbyterian conservative church to repent, heal, learn and thrive. The pastor
there did not farm me out to a para-church ministry “specializing” in “gay
people.” He and the session knew that the church is competent to counsel …. I
needed (and need) faithful shepherding, not the glitz and glamour that has
captured the soul of modern Evangelical culture. I had to lean and lean hard on
the full weight of scripture, on the fullness of the word of God, and I’m
grateful that when I heard the Lord’s call on my life, and I wanted to hedge my
bets, keep my girl friend and add a little God to my life, I had a pastor and
friends in the Lord who asked nothing less of me than that I die to myself.
Biblical orthodoxy can offer real compassion, because in our struggle against sin,
we cannot undermine God’s power to change lives. (24)
(3) Butterfield’s search for the answer to the question 'why
is homosexuality sinful' led her to some answers that speak about the root of all sin. And this is particularly
interesting to me because of Butterfield's feminist background. Most feminist
who identify themselves as Christian will insist that while men’s sinfulness is
rooted in pride (to be like God) that women’s sin is rooted in passiveness.
However, Butterfield, without denying that the citizen’s of Sodom practiced homosexuality,
uses Ezek. 16:48-50 and goes through each of the sins of Sodom beginning with
pride, which as she reminds the reader is the root of all sin.
Butterfield asks “Why pride?” She answers, “Pride is the
root of all sin. Pride puffs one up with a false sense of independence. Proud
people feel they can live independently from God and from other people. Proud
people feel entitled to do what they want when they want.” And then she goes on
to look at the rest of the sins cataloged in that verse: wealth (materialism),
lack of mercy, lack of discretion and lack of modesty. Butterfield notes that none
of these sins are sexual. As the author puts it, “Sexuality is more a symptom
of our life’s condition than a cause, more a consequence than an origin.
(30-31) Butterfield writes:
Importantly, we don’t see God
making fun of homosexuality or regarding it as different, unusual, or exotic
sin. What we see instead is God’s warning: if you indulge the sins of pride,
wealth, entertainment-lust, lack of mercy, and lack of discretion, you will
find yourself deep in sin—and the type of sin may surprise you. That sin may
attach itself to a pattern of life closely or loosely linked to the list. while sin is not contained by logical categories of progression, nonetheless, sin
is progressive. (31)
The chapters which follow Butterfield’s conversion
experience and her biblical and theological explanations of God’s sovereign
work in the sinner’s life are really about the working out of his purposes in
her life. From a broken relationship to
marriage, from a professorship to homeschooling, from hospitality In the LGBT
community to hospitality to young people and children, the rest of the book The Secret Thoughts of an Unlikely Convert
is filled with those good works that God prepared beforehand for all Christians
(Eph. 2:10)
Although I told my husband, the last chapter, “Homeschooling
and Middle Age” did not strike me as something that would hold my interest; I found
it to be the brightest section of the book. It is not only filled with fun,
worms wiggling on the writing desk, frozen birds in the refrigerator to be used
as a specimen, and two young children that instantly recognize a replica of the
Magna Carta of 1215, but also the
redemptive work of God in the lives of some severely broken children.
(4)And this is a final gem for the Church, perhaps unintended.
Redeemed lives are like the above, filled with wiggling worms, peanut butter
and jelly sandwiches, dogs with muddy paws, as well as broken people and days, all
enclosed in the purposes of our Lord. Butterfield has written a small book—a blessing
for the Church at this time in this post-modern culture.